well I’m working – I’m listening to an event take place in the big room waiting for rehearsal to start.  And there is an event for young girls happening.  I dont know maybe its me but these kinds of events make me uncomfortable.  these young girls have gone through classes to help them become “young women of virtue”  Maybe its my cynical nature or maybe my life experiences but I think it’s lunacy.  I mean do these parents really think that their girls are going to become what they want them to be because they took a class?  My experience with Christian girls is the church does little more than teach them how to manipulate the people around them by blinding them with fake virtue.  They are taught rules and rituals, but their hearts are not tattooed with a love for God and a desire to follow him.  

I’m listening to these young girls reciting a vow to have Christ reign in their lives and I think to myself that this is a good thing.  The children’s director is talking with them about making choices and deciding their decision in advance, and that’s all good.  But girls my age and I went through lessons like this, but not many of us (if any) actually followed through as adults.  I’m just wondering what makes these teachings take root in some lives and not in others.  sigh I’m just a bit cynical about this whole church thing right now.  why have programs?   I know they are good, but head knowledge doesn’t necessarily mean heart knowledge in most of these things.  But i know people in ministry who have a sincere desire to really help kids/teens along to live right lives.  Argh this is all garbled, all I’m saying really is i dont think what I’ve seen done in the past works – but I’m curious to see if what I see here works.  I’ll just have to keep an open mind.  

Now that I’m a parent I’m more than just curious about how to raise a child up in The Way.  I need to know because I dont want to mess up.  

I love my boy – he just knows how to make me smile… like sharing spit up on toys.